Thursday, August 29, 2013

Too


Too

We were much too young
Much to selfish
Much too blind
to make it.

Much to wounded
Much too frightened
Much too hurt
To take it.

Too much we said
When love seemed dead
To go on
And forget.

Too little learned
From anger burned
Too much
We both regret.

Yet God's been...

Much too good
Much too faithful
Much too kind
To walk away.

Much too patient
Much too present
Much too able
 Not to stay.

Too much harm
 To children's charms
To tear our home apart.

Too much time
For nursery rhymes
To give away our hearts.

Too much we've shared
With no one else
To go on and forget.

Too many years
Of drying tears
To do what we'd regret.

Too many laughs when
Thinking back
Remind me what is true
I find that I still love you
And I think you love me,
Too.

-Written by Beth Moore

When I read this, I couldn't help but think of my own marriage. The seasons that we have been through have been tough. I was so young and selfish (barely 20) when we got married. We fought over everything! Then I started to learn about submission. It took me 15 years to finally figure that one out. I would go from one extreme to the other. I finally learned it started with submission to God's plan and will for my life.  

Being the wife of a firefighter and having a large, growing family AND homeschooling them for seven years, meant that I was alone a lot with the kids. I was exhausted. I was grumpy. I was resentful and growing increasingly bitter towards my husband.

Looking back, I see now how I sought to control and change my man. I knew I was supposed to love him the way he was, but I just thought my life would be so much easier if he would just do what I thought was best! Through the help of three amazing women in my life (you know who you are), I received accountability that I so desperately needed. When I would complain, they would patiently listen, but then tell me flat out what I did wrong. They made me think it through after the emotions were not running quite as high. They were for my marriage. They were for Steve and they were for me. I didn't run to people who would bash him. I ran to people who knew the Word of God and would point me to it. I have grown so much because of them. Thank you!!!

Steve and I have entered into a new phase in our marriage. It seems to be based on mutual acceptance of each other's strengths and weaknesses. We don't seem to argue about stupid things anymore. We don't seem to argue much at all. I keep waiting for the other shoe to fall, but I really think this might be a lasting change. If I could put my finger on just one thing, I would say that we both feel SAFE. We can open up our hearts towards each other and know that the information will not be used as ammunition later in a fight. It has not always been this way. 

Thank you God, for the work you are doing in my marriage. You are so amazing! You are truly a miracle worker, for you know that our marriage has truly been a miraculous! Thank you for being so good to us. I look to You to continue to make me and mold me into the godly wife you would have me be.


Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Update

 Been a busy summer. I am so enjoying having my children home. I will miss them so much when they go back to school. I plan on helping out quite a bit more in the classroom, if my schedule allows it. 
 We were able to go visit our favorite pioneer cemetery. Here is Jacob trimming the weeds from the grave of two children who died in the late 1800's.
 Here is Miss Lily in her favorite sundress.
 Jessica decided to give her brother and sister a makeover! Oh my!!! Didn't know how much eyebrows can really change your look!

Steve with her kids on Father's Day.

We decided to put our house back up on the market. We want to move closer to our school and church. We are waiting to see what God is going to do. An offer has been accepted on a house we liked, but it is contingent on the sale of our home. Anything can happen, we just want to be in God's Will. Please pray for us!

I just found out my 91 year old grandpa has extensive cancer. He doesn't have long to live. Please pray his passing would be as peaceful as possible. He knows where he is going and he is looking forward to seeing his brothers, sisters, wife, and two sons. It is wonderful to grieve, but with hope.

I hope you all have a blessed summer. I think I'm going to take a break from blogging. Don't know how long, the Lord will let me know. Blessings!
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