Thursday, September 27, 2012
Not For A Moment
When reading about the Israelites and their lack of faithfulness, I would just be astounded. I would think, "How could you be so stupid? You walked through a sea that was parted. You witnessed miracle after miracle. How could you forget within days?"
Yesterday, I was so convicted. I am just like them. I have seen the miracles, yet within days, I am cast down and despairing. Why do I forget so easily? Why do humans have such a short memory? Why do we dwell on the negative and not the positive?
I confessed my sin and asked God to cleanse me yet once again. I asked Him to fill me with the Holy Spirit. In turn I was filled with hope, peace and patience that could only come from Him.
I am Peter. I want to walk on the water toward Jesus. I want to witness the miracle. Even as the miracle is taking place, I grow afraid and take my eyes off of Him and onto my circumstances. I begin to sink. Sometimes I don't even realize I am sinking until the feeling of drowning in grief and disappointment is heavy upon me. Then Jesus reaches out His strong and capable hand and He lifts me up again.
I am walking beside Him again and it feels good. I will remember the 1,300 plus blessings that are written in my journal. I will go back and read them and change my attitude. My God will not forsake me and my family.
This song came on the radio after I surrendered it all back to Him. Powerful! I think I might just have to sing this song at church.
Not For a Moment