I have been studying 2 Samuel 6 in my Bible study, Anointed, Transformed and Redeemed by Kay Arthur, Priscilla Shirer and Beth Moore. If you have been devastated by life, you might find this to be helpful. The quotes are from the Bible study, whereas, my comments are not in quotes.
"Nothing has the capacity to cause more destruction in a believer's life than an occurrence that makes us question everything we thought we knew about God. A heart can shatter in so many pieces that we don't think even God could put it back together again." -I've wondered this many times, can God really put this family back together again? What will it look like? When will it happen? What time frame are we talking about, God?
"He longs to be gracious to us and restore us with His unwavering love."
"Every inch of ground we refuse to take with God, we surrender to the enemy. Satan has no greater agenda than to talk you and me into believing that God is not good after all." If he can convince us of this, he has rendered me impotent. I will live a powerless life. If God is not good and can't be trusted, what is the point of all this? I KNOW God is good, because I have experienced miraculous changes, provision, and comfort that could have only come from Him. I have seen a cycle of defeat and sin be broken in my oldest son's life. I am watching him love the Lord and experience true VICTORY over lust and pornography. I am seeing the power of God in Josh's life! He is refusing to give the enemy anymore ground.
When we are devastated, we need to have the freedom to pour out the toxic parts of our hearts to God. If we don't we will never reach the tenderness that God has towards us. "Our hearts need pouring out more than when they're filled with the toxic waters of bitterness. David, the psalmist, knew that the lifeblood of a relationship with God was constant and conscious openness to His love, His presence, and His restoration."
After Uzzah died (he reached out to steady the ark when the oxen stumbled), David was shocked, angry and afraid of God. David had two choices, "He could either sit down in the dirt, throw a handful on his head, and refuse to get up or he could pour his heart out, bawl his eyes out, catch his God-given breath, and cling to Him for dear life."
"At times in our lives we will have two options. Sometimes we arrive at a place where we can either lose or gain ground, but returning to life as it was before is no longer an option. Change has stormed the gate. We will decide over the days and months to come if it will be positive or negative and whether we will glorify God or, Lord help us, vilify Him. Beloved, God's ways will always be higher than ours, but we don't have to understand Him to settle the matter in our hearts that we can trust Him."
We can fail backward like Saul did, or we can fail forward like David.
(This is Part One of a series)