Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Jesus Gave Him Back to His Mother


A week after our devastation I had many friends give us Scripture and tell me what the Lord had given them for Josh and for our family. I honestly was starting to get mad. I told the Lord, "You have given everyone else something for me, but you haven't spoken to me. I want a Word from YOU. I want to know you see my tears. I don't want anymore silence. I'm scared and I don't know what to do".

I opened my Believing God Bible study by Beth Moore. She started to go over the miracles of Jesus. I thought "Great, I know all of these". I even skipped over the wedding of Cana because it was so familiar and just filled in the blanks. When we got to the Widow of Nain in Luke 7:11-15, I started to do the same thing, but felt the Lord say, "Read this, Stacie". O.K., already! I'm so glad I did, because it about knocked the wind out of me.

This is what I wrote in my journal,

"When the Lord saw the widow, his heart went out to her and He said, 'Don't cry'. Then he went up and touched the coffin  and those carrying it stood still.  He said, 'Young man, I say to you get up!' The dead man sat up and began to talk and Jesus gave him back to his mother."

Jesus, you had compassion on the woman who lost her son, You are letting me know that you have compassion on me. That you understand my sorrow, my grief. You are the God who sees.

Oh, thank you! I needed that. Help me to cling to this. To remember this promise that you have given me. My son will be given back to me. His life will experience the power of your resurrection. He was once dead in sin, but you will raise Him to life, a new creation! He will become the man of God I have always prayed for. This is my hope. Give me enough faith to BELIEVE this. Remind me of this story over and over and over until it is so imprinted in my head."

My biggest fear, the thing that I had been grieving and struggling with is that I thought I had lost him. You have shown me that I haven't. He WILL be given back to me. Thank you, thank you for that comfort.

Well, the Lord didn't give him back immediately like I thought he would. . You see so many times we think we have it all figured out. He had a much greater healing in mind. He wants to completely change Josh. To not just put a bandage on a gaping wound that started with pornography. No, he wants to make Josh into a NEW person. A person who will love, serve, and follow Him for the rest of His days. This will take time. God's time.

One time I went to visit Josh, and the first words that came out of his mouth was, "Mom, I love God. I want to follow Him." Oh, could a mother hear anything sweeter come from the lips of her child who had sinned greatly against God? To watch my son with his arms raised up to the sky singing, "Christ has risen from the dead, come awake, come awake, come and rise up from the dead," over and over, was a triumphant moment.

Do you believe in power of the resurrection? Will you continue to praise Him, trusting in His timing and His ways? Do you have the patience to wait for Him to do a mighty work in Your life, or do you want it now? These are questions we must ask ourselves. His ways are not our ways, they are so much higher than ours.


11 comments:

Ellie Rae said...

I have no doubt that God can give him back to you, changed. The fact that he says he wants to serve God is huge.

Ma said...

I know our God will heal your son. It's just the timing issue that will require so much faith and trust. I think about Hannah taking her son to the temple to serve, not being able to live with him anymore as she had promised him to God. God did wonderful things through Samuel.

Know that you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Homestead Living said...

I just want you to know that we are still praying for your dear family. Sometimes we as homeschooling families think that our children will somehow bi-pass some sins. But that is just what our enemy wants us to think. Thank you for sharing this tender part of your life with us. May we be more alert because of your powerful testimony!

OurLilFullFam said...

Stacie,

He is able, what an awesome promise we have!

Stephanie

Jenn said...

So powerful, Stacie! WOW! What a powerful message for you from God! Praying, for Josh and your whole family!

Camille said...

It's true that we often are not willing to wait. May the LORD give you HIS grace day by day. May HE indeed do a mighty work in each heart for HIS glory! I am still praying for you....

Much Love,
Camille

Cheesemakin' Mamma said...

It just gives me chills to think how Josh is going to be when he grows up - how God is going to use him and all of us as we minister to those who have been affected by the destructive sin of pornography Satan puts under our noses every day. What Satan meant for evil, God will use for His glory and our blessing.

Mara said...

Waiting is always a hard matter with us finite humans, but I am thankful that the Lord is bestowing to you a better future through His word.

Been thinking about you and your son's situation . . . never give up hope!

Connie said...

Oh how much we hate waiting for God to answer prayer and complete the work. I know that God is working in all of you. In the future it will be fun telling what HE has done!

a little of me said...

hi friend...hope at this moment God is working things out in your life...im sure he does..im hosting today a bloghop on tuesday"s feel free to post something you want to share with others...will be a big blessing...praying for you all...blessings

Kristin Bridgman said...

God will bring him back. This spoke to me Stacie and gives me hope! Thank you for sharing from your heart! Praying for you all.

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