How do we get to the morning, to the sunshine, to the joy? There is only one way. By waiting for it. we can't hurry the dawn, no matter how anxiously we pace the floor or how impatiently we watch the clock. and so the question is not do we wait or not wait, because waiting is all we can do. The question is, how will we wait? Will we wait well... or will we wait poorly?
I am a woman who wants resolution. The hardest part of my situation is waiting. I can't even form a plan of action. The fact is, it is a new normal. A new season in our life we could have never anticipated. Will we wait well or will we wait poorly?
Everyday, I make that choice. On my good days, I am "trusting the Lord with all my heart and leaning not on my own understanding"- Proverbs 3:5. I am submitted to him, and to his authority in my life. On my bad days, I am doubting, fretting, worried about what our future holds. I am focused on my circumstances and not on my HUGE God that "works all things together for those that love him and are called according to his purpose" -Romans 8:28. On my bad days I question and ask "Why would you allow this to happen to someone who has committed her life to you?" He is not silent. He says, "Because I love you and 'have plans to prosper you and not to harm you'-Jeremiah 29:11, because I want you to BELIEVE me to be a big God, a mighty God who WILL deliver you from your Egypt to the Promised Land." Oh, it isn't audible, it is whispered ever so sweetly into my spirit.
One thing I have learned, God is good all the time, even when it looks like he is allowing harm to befall our tent. He is still good. He is a LOVING Father. A MERCIFUL Savior who has suffered so much more than we have. He will redeem this situation and he WILL get the Glory.
Oh, Jesus, Jesus, there is just something about that name...