Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Lessons From a Mother on Her Sick Bed
After having to be stuck in bed for a month after having foot surgery, I have come to realize several things:
1. I have learned to be dependent on others. Having never been in this situation (except for an occasional short illness or the end of a pregnancy), I had no idea what it was like to depend on my family and friends from everything to a cup of water, to cooking meals for a family of eight, to cleaning my house.
2. I've realized God is a God of provision in a fresh, new way. I was amazed that in my darkest hours as I was fighting depression from being isolated and laying in bed for so long, that He truly cared about the big and little things that I needed. If I was lonely, I would ask Him to bring me a friend. The next thing I knew He would send a friend to my bedside to encourage me. If I needed to someone to clean the house because I just couldn't stand it anymore, someone would come and do it without me even asking. Oh, what a blessing!
3. I learned that when I was in constant pain, I could get grumpy and demanding. The worst of my “flesh” was brought out to the surface. The good news was that I decided to allow God to do something about it. Through daily Bible study, prayer time and journalling, I worked through some major things in my past that were hindering my future. I recognized some strongholds that I had allowed to creep into my life. Mostly attitudes of bitterness, resentment and unforgiveness towards people who had hurt me. I even found myself calling one of these people and confessing the wrongs that I had committed in the relationship. Oh, it was painful heart surgery, but I could feel Him mending me back together. Each wound was stitched by God's loving, healing hand. II felt like He took His spiritual scouring pad and gave me a thorough scrubbing that at times left me bloody and raw. But I realized without it, I would never be able to fully heal the way God wanted me to. I would also never be able to forgive and love the way God forgives and loves me. Oh, His abundant Grace!
4. I learned that God CAN heal. About five weeks after my surgery the doctor told me I had to wear my walking boot (I had avoided it because of the nerve pain and swelling that I was experiencing and I couldn't sleep with it on.) This particular night I prayed that God would heal those painful nerve endings and decrease the swelling so that I could stand to be in the boot all night long. As I was praying, I felt a warm, tingling sensation move from my knee and all the way down to my toes. I went to sleep and didn't wake up till 6:30 a.m. Ever since that night I have been able to endure the boot. He is “Jehovah Rapha”, the God Who Heals!
5. He prepares us in ways we can't fathom. Even though I thought I understood why I had lost my voice for most of last year due to nodules on my vocal cords, I really had no idea what He was preparing me for. Had He not helped me to get the volume of my voice under control, I would have been yelling at my kids way more. In this situation, all I had was my voice! I'm so thankful that God prepared me ahead of time for what was yet to come.
Dear ones, God can be trusted! He has our best interest in mind. He wants us to press into Him with all that we have when we are going through our trials and tribulations.
Have faith when you are hurting and in pain. God does not waste pain. He uses it for His eternal purposes and for His ultimate glory.
From Mom to Another,