I keep asking God to reveal the lessons that He wants me to learn. So much of it is "Be still and wait". Another biggie is doubt. I have had so many doubts of whether I did the right thing or not. My mind has become a battlefield. If I don't take certain thoughts captive, I can be consumed with negative thinking.
When people ask me how I'm doing, I am one to be honest. I am struggling. I have good days and I have bad days. I am learning to ask God for what I need. If I'm feeling lonely, I need to ask Him, "Lord, bring me a friend today." He has done it! If I'm in terrible pain, I ask Him, "Lord, help me get through this hour and eventually this day." He does it. I have survived.
I'm so thankful that He had me do the "Believing God" Bible study at this season of my life. He knew I would need that daily encouragement. I'm sad that it has ended, but am looking forward to studying Revelation with Beth in a new DVD lecture series called, "Here and Now".
I am so blessed to have so many family and friends nearby. It is so HUGE when they swing by for an hour or two and help out with the little ones. "Helpless" is the word that keeps coming to my mind. I feel very helpless when it comes to disciplining and breaking up fights and such. When people come by, I sic them on the kids and they have to obey! People have also helped out with other things like clean my room, make the beds, give a haircut to a kid, meals, steam-cleaned my floors, and so many more things.
Whether I'm up or down, I still need to always be clinging to Christ my Savior. He loves me and He knows what I need. I just need to ask Him.
Blessings my friends!