Some of you may know that I have been struggling for the past four or five months with a very hoarse voice. It has been quite painful and it makes me sound like I have a frog in my throat all the time. I was just diagnosed with nodules on my vocal cords, which is a fancy way of saying I have “calluses on my vocal cords.”
It has interfered with my life in many ways. I can’t sing, I can’t read very many stories out loud to my children and I struggle lecturing the children when I’m homeschooling. The thing that does keep me encouraged is the fact that I know God does not waste pain. This has become very evident with a few things He has been teaching me.
The first thing I learned is that even though I knew I had come a long ways in the area of not raising my voice at my children, I still wasn’t doing good enough. It was as if God was saying, “No more! You are in a bad habit and if you can’t break it, I love you enough to help you break it for good.” So, He took away my voice. I literally cannot raise my voice in the slightest without wincing in pain. This has forced me to stop being lazy and go find my children instead of testing to see if they are within yelling distance!
When I’m angry, I need to stand or kneel in front of them, take their face in my hands and lower my voice on purpose so as not to strain my voice. I am actually thanking God for this habit-breaking affliction!
The second thing that has been affected by this malady is my worship. I am learning for the first time how to worship the Lord without singing. Singing praises to God has always been my prevalent form of worship. Instead I find myself entering into a whole new place in my worship. I am reminded of the song lyrics, “When the music fades and all is stripped away, and I simply come.” Without the distraction of whether or not I am hitting the right notes, I am forced to completely and utterly focus on the words. I can truly come into a place where I am worshipping Him in Spirit and in Truth. It has been an incredible experience. I can literally feel the Spirit of God wash over me as I silently, but intentionally worship before Him. I pray that when I do get my voice back, I will be able to mesh all of this together.
The third lesson I’m learning is to choose my words wisely. I need to “let my words be few”. I am continuing to refine my speech patterns by being “slow to speak, quick to listen and slow to become angry.” Not an easy task!
Isn’t God amazing? All these years I’ve known these to be some of my greatest weaknesses. I’ve prayed hard and long for God to do what it takes to root these bad habits out of my life. I never thought He would have to give me nodules on my vocal cords to do it.
The only way these will go away is by changing my vocal patterns and to not yell (ever). I will relearn how to speak and sing in a way that will not strain my voice.
I challenge you to do a self-inspection. What bad behaviors or habits have you just not been able to fully change? Jim Cymbale writes, “God is attracted to weakness. He can’t resist those who humbly and honestly admit how desperately they need Him.”
"Show me your way , oh Lord, teach me Your paths; guide me in Your truth and teach me for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in You all day long." -Psalm 25:4-5 My Mission for this BLOG is to bring glory to God as I share what He is teaching me as I raise my children for Him. I want to encourage mothers all around the world to hang in there! Motherhood is tough, challenging and gritty. But through Christ's strength and the support of other moms who are in the trenches, I will keep pressing towards the goal to raise Godly children. Please feel free to leave comments. It blesses me so much! You can also email me at email@example.com
I am a Stay-At-Home mother of six children. We LOVE having a large family. My first love, is Christ and the Words of the Bible. My passion is to teach my children about the Lord. I love to watch my children discover their own faith in God. My husband has been a firefighter for over 20 years and is now an officer. I am very proud of him. I long to be a Titus 2 woman who encourages other women to love their husbands and children and to thrive in their homes, not just survive.
The noblest calling in the world is that of a mother. True motherhood is the most beautiful of all arts, the greatest of all professions. She who can paint a masterpiece or who can write a book that will influence millions deserves the plaudits and admiration of mankind; but she who rears successfully a family of healthy, beautiful sons and daughters whose immortal souls will be exerting an influence throughout the ages long after paintings shall have faded, and books and statues shall have been destroyed, deserves the highest honor that man can give. -David O. McKay Motherhood is the one thing in all the world which most truly exemplifies the God-given virtues of creating and sacrficing. Though it carries the woman close to the brink of death, motherhood also leads her into the very realm of the fountians of life and makes her co-partner with the Creator in bestowing upon eternal spirits mortal life. -David O McKay We can't form our children on our own concepts; we must take them and love them as God gives them to us. -Johann Wolfgang von Goethe Lo, children are a heritage of the Lord; and the fruit of the womb is his reward. -Psalm 127:3 The mother's heart is the child's schoolroom -Henry Ward Beecher The art of mothering is to teach the art of living to children. -Elaine Heffner People who say they sleep like babies usually don't have them. -Leo J. Burke
To be a mother is a woman's greatest vocation in life. She is a partner with God. No being has a position of such power and influence. She holds in her hands the destiny of nations, for to her comes the responsibility and opportunity of molding the nation's citizens. -Spencer W. Kimball