mountain of laundry, I didn't get caught up until Wednesday. Friday night was so wonderful! My friends, Toni (mother of four) and Rachel (mother of 5) came over and we had our informal "Mom's of Many" chat night. We all agreed ahead of time that we would only chat from 7:30 p.m. till 10:30. We were all shocked when we looked at the clock and it was almost 12:00 a.m.! Rachel and I are starting to experience some teenage stuff, and Toni is walking the path now, so we peppered her with lots of questions, encouraged each other in our marriages and swapped some funny stories. LOVED IT!!!!!!!!
trampoline in the rain! I have actually lost my voice from talking so much. Not good, because I'm supposed to be singing a solo tomorrow at church. My children are probably wondering why I'm being really quiet now! LOL!
Lily is walking everywhere now. It is so fun to watch and cheer her on. She is still so tiny, it's amazing that someone so small can be walking around so well. Jacob is still trying to pee off and on in the toilet. He has no interest whatsoever is pooping in the darn thing, but that's OK.
I've had a roller coaster week, emotionally. I've been experiencing more healing, as more things have come up from my parents divorce. It feels like God has ripped a giant band aid off my heart and took his scouring sponge and went to work. The wound was raw and open, but now that the air has been let in, I am starting to truly heal. It is extremely painful, but very encouraging to know that I am moving forward in this area. I want to get to a place of true forgiveness. I am shocked that I still had baggage after 20 years. It goes to show that the consequences from a traumatic event in a child's life, has a lasting effect. That reason alone, makes me want to work at my marriage with a new fervor. I want the best marriage I can possibly have. That takes work and the determination beyond what I can do on my own. We are two sinful people, with two completely different upbringings. If you look at it that way, marriage is truly a miracle.
The only thing I think I can say right now is this:
Keep working at it ladies! Don't give up. Let God heal.
Love you all!
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