I am so in love with my God! I have been having a sort of dry spell lately. Just kind of doing the routine, being in the Word, praying, but something has been missing. My passion and joy for the Lord has been kind of blah. You know what it's like, I'm sure. We can't be on the mountain top with God every single moment of our lives. I just hate it though.
This morning, I was laying in bed dreading (yes, I said dreading) soccer games today after church. Steve was unable to take the day off to help me, and I hate asking my parents to help me all the time. I want to be able to "just do it!". I asked the Lord if he would lay it on my parents heart to take Josh to soccer at 2:00 p.m., and bring him back to me, so the little ones could take their naps and I wouldn't be driving back and forth between games. The other two kid's games were at 4:00. Just enough gap to make it really inconvenient.
I went to church this morning and started praying for Him to help me feel his presence, to show me He is real. I sometimes get lost in his invisibility. It is hard to have faith that He truly IS right beside you every second of the day. I got home and started serving lunch. The phone rang and it was Diana (my stepmom) asking if she could take Josh to his game. My mouth dropped open and I'm sure I sputtered. I told her that I had prayed that very prayer and that God had just answered it. Amazing love, how can it be? He loves me so much, He wants to show me He is real.
Another thing He convicted me of when I was questioning this dry spell was that I am distracted. I have become a Martha in many ways. I fret and worry over the littlest things. I am being stressed because of my own decisions. I can't blame my husband or my children. It is me, all me. I need to be more intentional about focusing and trusting the Lord in ALL things, including disciplining my children and how they are going to turn out.
God didn't just stop there. No He did not! He decided to DELIGHT me! I opened my email and found this sweet note from my hubby. He does not email me very often (like maybe once a year!). It is such a treat when he does.
He wrote this:
Hey have a great day stress less and know that you are a great mom and wife doing a great job at both. Give all the kids a anaconda squeeze and smooch
Love sweet daddio
What a sweet heart! It brought tears to my eyes, just thinking about how much God knew I needed that.
So the picture above is my favorite spot to be. The Word open, my Beth Moore Bible study (right now A Heart Like His: A study of David) and my coffee. This is where God refreshes my Spirit and restores my soul.
May He do the same for you in the "little things".